Years We Lost

by Nate Leslie

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Nate Leslie's 6th full-length solo album.

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released March 8, 2019

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Nate Leslie is a sonic alchemist creating his own blend of indie post-punk electro psychedelic rock. Whatever that means.

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Track Name: Push The Sugar
Paint the picture of your home
all is well and feels like gold
mother calls you on the phone
tell her that you’re not alone

curses whispered to yourself
wishing you were somewhere else
silent in your wishing well
all the secrets you won't tell

it might save a lot of time, but waste my heart
if I keep you from my mind, stay in the dark
days that pass before my eyes, no story arc
push the sugar into lines and we depart

drink enough to warm your bones
tolerance just seems to grow
talking the kindest tone
bury both your feet in stone

am I saving all my time?
am I saving all my time
Track Name: Foggy Windows
I wonder, if in the end,
all my words, and all my friends
are make-believe or just pretend
10,000 letters that I’ll never send

my efforts have all been strong
my truest loves have lasted long
I’ve seen this world from end to end
and I’ve been lost before, and I’ll get lost again

oh baby I’ll never stop wanting you
oh baby I’ll never stop wanting you

these foggy ruins are made of time
their deepest flaw is their design
I’ve lived my life like I was gone
until you reached in and turned the light back on

I’ll put my words in this machine
I wonder how and what it means
I get so lost where I can’t be seen
was I ever here, or was it all a dream
Track Name: The Cyanide Tree
breathe, in a pile of frozen leaves
falling pilots on the breeze
at the bottom of the sea
you don’t know, there could be...

the skipper’s on a dead ship he wanted to know
and he’s building up a bonfire he made out of bones
and he’s talking to his best friend even though he’s alone
and he’s dancing in the flames tryin’ to turn into stone
and he’s breathing from a bubble that he keeps on his head
and he’s quoting all the worst-selling novels he read
and he’s wishing to escape from all the vipers he fed
and the whole world stopped when he said

stay in the silence
conned into violence
no one is asking “Can we hide them in the island?”

Ruby’s on a ghost train into town
and she’s twisting all the cherry branches into a crown
and she’s searching for the treasure buried under the ground
all the words of her father in a clamorous sound
coalesce into a language that she can’t understand
Ruby can you dig yourself out without your hands?
with your hands I’m healed
with your hands

he’s breathing from a bubble
he’s breathing from a bubble
the skipper’s on a dead ship he wanted to know
and he’s building up a bonfire he made out of bones
and he’s talking to his best friend even though he’s alone
and there’s no place like home, there is no place like home

stay my silent friend
stay my silent friend
Track Name: Hungry Ground
I’m in a state, I am a dead weight to you
I need some new words to get my message through
a change in the weather ain’t what this is about
but this kind of snowfall will be knocking the power out

now that time is through, were you in love too?
will this hungry ground eat my bones too?

you look at me cross-eyed, and you couldn’t tell
your vision is perfect, I’m just blurry as hell
am I an echo of an ominous sound?
I am the most dangerous thing you ever found

I’m in a prison that’s floating away
the door is not wide enough for me to escape
who is the mother who made us this way?
she died during childbirth on the shore of the salt lake.
Track Name: Seattle, WA
the front door’s unlocked, just in case
you were to show up while I’m away
I left your bedroom just the same
I haven’t touched a single thing

I saw your footprints in the ground
all along the shores of Puget Sound
I’m still unsure of what you found
I wish that you were still around

so come on, come on, come on, give me the stuff
‘cause it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts too much
so come on, come on, come on, give me the stuff
‘cause it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts too much

under the pounding of the waves
after they begged you just to stay
I knew that you could not be saved
your heart was made to drift away
Track Name: Closure
faced my fears after twenty years
in a parking lot found in my conversation
about sidewalks littered with hate that could fit her
if only she remembered her name
my hometown haunt is all that I want
and I think that you were feeling the same

lyin’ in wait for the perfect moment
to sabotage all of the things you were hoping could
lift you out of the dirt you find yourself
buried in the bottom of your lost time
your childhood friend is waiting at the end
and they’re not the type to change their mind

my heart has never felt the summer
and why does no place feel like home
death or life, you choose one or the other
tell all my friends I’ll see them soon

contradicting the love you were feeling
in a parking lot found in your conversation
about hanging on to hope while you were choking
while you’re buried in the bottom of your lost mind
it’s all wrong and we’re moving right along
it’s the least that I can do with your time

my heart has never felt the summer
and why does no place feel like home
death or life, you choose one or the other
tell all your friends you’ll see them soon

faced my fears after twenty years
but I never felt broken until I told you
that I’ve been feeling that death looks appealing
even when I’m stupid in love
it’s all wrong and we’re moving right along
and I never want to waste your time
Track Name: Glimmer
I ran into silence, and then she disappeared
I saw her inside my eyelids, now I haven’t seen her for years
I heard that she mighta’ split
I heard the sound might’ve broke her a little bit
I wonder if she remembers
all the places she’s been

what if I told you I had bad news?
your home is on fire all around you
now that your lilies are in full bloom,
I find myself sleeping in your room

did you hear the sirens sing words to your friends?
they lure you to their islands where this whole thing will end
you never started a war, you never knew what the demons were looking for
I wonder if she remembers that I’m outside her door

lie down on the pavement in the dark
lie down on the pavement in the dark
lie down on the pavement in the dark
I couldn’t find, I couldn’t know
but I wouldn’t mind you coming home

I’m looking for silence
Track Name: Maybe Then
you got me to sign on the dotted line
not sure if I’ll ever change my mind
I was innocent at one point
when they locked me in the joint
I can’t recall my friends’ names
‘cuz all my enemies look the same
I’m impervious to your charms
till you took me in your arms
in your arms

if you blink a little bit harder, maybe then I won’t have to see you cry
if I talk a little bit louder, maybe then I won’t hear you say goodbye
if I take a little bit longer, maybe then the good things won’t end so soon
if I try a little bit harder, maybe then I won’t end up losing you

your satellites are spinning around my head
transmitting what you said
but the gravity’s wearing thin
the gravity’s wearing thin
you forced my hand in a foreign land
played a game of catch me if you can
I was frozen in my tracks
as I watched it all collapse
as I watched it all collapse
Track Name: Inside Out
am I awake or something worse?
I coulda sworn that something hurts
if I could finally lose my mind
I’ll be the one to drive the hearse
million explosions in the sun
chemical makeup on the run
I never saw you having fun
I know I’m not the only one

I’m inside out, I’m upside down
will you ever tell me how to change
the things that hold me down

lay on a bed I’ve made from stone
carving a lantern out of bone
I’m at a loss for lack of words
talk through a melting telephone
I’m out of time and out of space
out of the love that I have known
carving some new lines on my face
I am feeling right at home

try to hold you tongue baby
when you got nothing to say baby
I’ve been feeling in the way lately
will you take me home to safety?

if I swallow every pill
running away, trying to feel
when the invaders have their fill
I’ll be a statue standing still
too many voices say your name
if there is one that gave you chills
turn out the lights from your last meal
none of these things were ever real
Track Name: Spare Room
you talk to me like I’m a stranger
but I’ve known you for a real long time
and I don’t need the facts a figures
just wanna know how you’ve spent your time

do you still live in that old stone house?
does the roof still leak each time it rains?
and no, your mother never liked me much
was it what I did or who I was?

I left you a gift in the spare room
the one you never use
when you find it, you will see
it’s an offer you can’t refuse
to forget all the heartache, all the pain and the abuse
that you suffered at my hands

I inherited my father’s gift
for self destructive habits
I didn’t mean to give that weight to you
but sometimes things end up slipping through

now I’m stuffed away inside a cardboard box
hiding under your basement stairs
and you lost the keys to all your old locks
and it seems like you don’t really care

in a moment of my weakness I will let you go
in a moment of my weakness I was turned to stone

it’s ok if you don’t want to remember
it’s ok if you don’t want to remember

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